Cameron Dallas and Nash Grier have the social media game on lock. Between the two of them, they rack up an impressive following...and with millions of fans on Facebook, Twitter, Vine, YouTube, and Instagram, it was only a matter of time before other industries took notice. Though they got their start making videos and clips online, the digital wunderkinds are branching out into a more traditional role: movies.

The Outfield, which is out today on iTunes, tells the story of three best friends and teammates who have to navigate their senior year of college together. (Joey Bragg costars as the third amigo in this crew.) The boys deal with things that are real to most teenagers' lives: falling in love, choosing a college, and interacting with your family at a time when you're still trying to figure out who you are.

It's fitting that Cameron and Nash, who are IRL friends, would make the leap together. They both grew up on their digital platforms and brought their fans along for the ride, growing ever closer with each other and their followers as they did so. The two caught up with Teen Vogue to talk about the transition to acting and how it differs from the work they've made before, how they bond with their fans, and what their eventual career goals look like. If anything, it's proof that whether you have a million followers or a hundred, you're still answering the same big questions about life — and that you're never as alone as you might feel.


Teen Vogue: Can you tell us about the movie?

Nash Grier: It's these three best friends who grow up together and they have this unbreakable bond. The movie follows them from the beginning of the baseball season to their start in life — when kids are seniors, graduating high school, and deciding what they want to do with their lives.

Cameron Dallas: Yeah, it's about coming of age and it's a really fun film. But my character has to decide between if he wants to continue his love life or to choose his career that's going to be his ticket outside of this small town. He feels like he's stuck.


NG: It's all about the decisions that we make in our lives. My character has the conflict about what his true passion is. He has to choose between what everyone thinks it is and what everyone's telling him to do, and then what it actually is. It's a lot about finding yourself, and telling and showing kids that. It's a lot of real experiences and I think kids are going to get a lot out of it so that's what I'm most excited about.

CD: And parents, too. If I was a parent, I definitely would want to watch it because I think you can kind of see where kids are coming from. My character Frankie has a dad who is an alcoholic, and they're really poor. He feels stuck in Peoria, and he's looking for his one ticket out. And right now, it's baseball so he's trying to focus on baseball but at the same time he has to help his family make ends meet. So he has to work with his dad, he scraps metal, and a lot of the times it's illegal. They pull metal pieces off cars and stuff like that and sell it. And he can't really focus, but he ends up falling in love with a really cool girl. Her dad's wealthy and her dad tells me, and she stops focusing on school...

NG: Don't spoil this.

CD: AND THAT'S ALL YOU GET. [Laughs] I reel you in and that's all you get.

NG: There are some cool things in it, and friendship is a big one of them. We had a scene that was real as hell and it was really coming from the heart and someone on set was like, "It's cool how close you guys are." Friendship's a huge one and definitely allows us to do the movie.

CD: And shooting the scenes, especially, because we had chemistry before the movie. It was so easy to relax and be real about it…just react and not try to act all, but just to be in that scene and in that moment.


TV: And in your real lives, have you experienced that growth in friendship?

NG: Yeah, definitely. Especially in these industries, and how fast they move, you get to see who's real and who's loyal and who's not.

CD: It's interesting. We go through a lot of trial and tribulations. I think we're really relatable to our fans and our friends anyway. Like we share a big part of our lives with them and they relate to that, too. So in a way they don't live the life that we live, but they see everything.

NG: They live through it.

CD: They probably know a lot more than some of my family members.

NG: They know more about me than I know about myself.


TV: Is there anything that you do try to keep off your channels?

CD: For me, it's personal family matters.

NG: I'm pretty open with everything. Everything I make, I go into it with the thought of, alright, what should I make for my people today? So there's never anything I'd hide from anyone.

CD: But not like a video, is there anything...say your dog died, or say something happened that you didn't make a video...?

NG: I don't know. I'm pretty open with most things that happen in my life because people help me through those things. Literally, if it's bad news or whatever, they're always there to help me through with support, which is the best thing with our relationship with our fans. If you look at Tom Cruise, I'm sure more people know Tom Cruise than me and he should probably have more fans than me, but the relationship that I have with the people that support me is like, we're best friends. We're like family. I don't know if I'd hide anything from them. And there's been some pretty crazy stuff that's happened in my life and all of them know about it and all of them see it and that's awesome.


TV: How was it different to shoot a movie that has a script and isn't based on your lives rather than all the stuff that you make?

NG: It’s very fun and eye-opening. I fell in love with storytelling, and especially long-form storytelling. With a Vine or a YouTube video or anything that we create, we're the directors, producers, actors, writers…We're all of it. When you're living out someone else's vision and being an actor, that's your only job. You don't have any other job, so you can really focus. It's just fun pretending to be somebody else and doing it to the fullest, to the point where I was that character for however many months.

CD: The directors, Eli and Michael, would give us the scene. We went through the script and we spent a lot of time before filming going over the script and reading it with each other. And instead of on Vine or YouTube where we're coming up with a concept, we're shooting it, we're editing it, we're pushing it out, we're marketing it, we're doing all of that, we kind of just play the role. So it's interesting to go and talk to someone and they give you their vision for the scene. Then it's your job to go and push that vision that they have out on camera. And what excites me is doing that scene and then coming off and having the directors coming up to you like, “Wow, that's amazing, that's exactly what I wanted.”


NG: Because you did your job if you did what they want. And that's the scariest thing. You really have to trust your director to get whatever it is out of you. He's going to tell you what you really need to do because he knows how he wants it to look and no one else does. You can shoot a whole movie and rehearse and read the script 50,000 times but after the movie's done, you're not going to see it. You have no idea what it will look like. It's really up to the director. So that's the eventual goal for me, I want to be giving those visions to people and maybe give myself some of my own visions. Directing and writing and all that stuff. If I can eventually tell my own stories like that and do it in a long-form way rather than a short-form way, that's how I want to transition.

CD: I want to continue acting, and maybe moving into more traditional movies and then doing movies with Fullscreen and stuff like that.

NG: That's the cool thing with us, we get to double-dip. So there's these indie films, and then there's these smaller budget films. And then there's the big ones, the 100 films that Hollywood makes every year that we're getting into now because of what the internet's allowed us to do. They're all very different films, we have options to do whatever which is the coolest thing.

CD: I want to continue doing both, and then just staying true to what we got big off of, which is posting on Twitter, posting on Instagram, posting on Vine and Facebook, and just keeping my creative intact and keeping that connection with my fans.

TV: Is that something fans have been worried about, that you'll abandon one platform for another?

CD: I'm sure it's crossed their minds but just remembering and staying true is the biggest thing. And they're very close. If I start to feel distant, they'll tell me, “Cameron, why haven't you posted?” and it's like oh, shoot, I need to post.

NG: They're honest as hell. You will get a raw opinion from millions of people no matter what you do. So that's good because we'll always know, okay, this is what they want next. We know our audience best and we have the best access to them, so if we can keep going with that by the time we're filming movies ten years from now and still have an audience that we can reach with our fingertips, that would be amazing. I think that's been the end goal, to stay true to where we started, keep our creativity going, and just keep taking steps forward.

TV: Because you guys are so phenomenally busy, do you ever feel the need to just take a break and distance yourself?

NG: I put my phone down for weeks at a time sometimes, and I don't even use it.


CD: Yeah, this guy does it a lot more than I do.

NG: Once I'm on it too much, it drives me crazy. I go on there for fun — that's why I started doing all of this. But once it gets overwhelming, I just need to put it down for a few hours and I can't have anyone talk to me.

CD: What I've noticed too is that when I'm by myself, it's not fun. But when I'm with other people that are doing it, too, it's exciting. Let's say I'm by myself and I'm starting to get sick of it, I'll start hanging out with other people, it's a gradual thing. You don't just jump in like, oh, let's start filming videos. You do some funny stuff, you're excited, and then you're like, oh, I should video tape that.

NG: The stars gotta line up. You gotta see in a way like, alright, with what I have, what could I make the most viral? That's what a lot of kids do. They live their lives and they have plans to make videos that day but they just live and find the story as they go. That's what we did. I started in school making videos and in my classroom with my teacher, and I had no followers. But that's how it got started. And it would go to bigger and cooler things and then we were on TV shows doing it, and it just turned into mayhem.

People feel obligated to show their lives on these platforms. They want someone's opinion, and I don't think it should ever be like that. It should be to have fun and to keep your memories. That's one of my favorite things about this. We're just logging our memories as we go. We'll always be able to go back and look at a picture or look at a video and remember everything that happened around that time, and that's the best thing.

TV: What's the one thing you're most proud of having created?

NG: A voice, for sure. From being a kid that had no voice at all, literally only his parents and his sports team listened to him…That's the coolest thing ever to see me, of all people, being in the real world and having a voice and an influence. And that should show everyone that they can do it. It really only takes one person to make a difference. If one person can do it, and everyone has that mindset, then that makes the world a better place.


CD: I wouldn't even know. The voice thing is pretty cool, he really got that one. I think the thing I'm most proud of is building a connection with people and being able to help them through things. Let's say someone's going through some crazy thing in their life, and they're looking for an out and something that's going to help them. Being able to be that thing is pretty amazing. Creating that connection with a fan is what it's all about for me.

NG: What I had to realize when I started doing this is you can help people through just being yourself and just living your life and setting an example and doing good...just being you. People see that and they feed off that, and they feed off your happiness and your success and they use it for themselves. That's been the coolest thing to see, the people that we can affect firsthand.

It's so different with every person. But there's some people who I knew were suicidal and they watched our videos and it helps them see some sort of light and it keeps them going.

Girls...and guys, too...that get bullied, people that have issues, anything that someone needs help with. There's a right way to handle things and a right way to look at things. So if you look at bullying, what we promote is that it's a waste of time. Why would anyone ever degrade someone when there's tons of bad things going on in the world? Just use your time on something else, or don't even bother going on their page and commenting. Because people take that to heart, they kill themselves from people telling themselves to kill themselves. Like, what the hell? That shouldn't ever happen. I think that's the biggest thing our generation needs to learn, that we should be hate-free. If you're going to hate on something, don't say it. Just keep it in your head, don't waste your time and don't waste someone else's time.


Suicide Squad is a movie based on the concept of a super-group of villains recruited by a government agent to defeat an even bigger threat, with the idea being that if they join forces, their collective villainy will outweigh the evil of one mega-villain. But who have they been recruited to defeat, exactly? That’s one thing we don’t know, although it is a little easy to suss it out from the footage we saw over the summer.

Using deductive reasoning, it’s fairly easy to figure out that one of these things in the Suicide Squad footage is not like the others. You may have noticed that Cara Delevingne’s Enchantress is the only character who doesn’t appear in the Squad’s full lineup, nor does she share scenes with the other members of the team. Heroic Hollywood also points this out, while adding an unconfirmed rumor about her part in the film: Delevingne becomes Enchantress during the movie and sets out on a mission to locate and resurrect her dead brother with the hope that they can destroy the world together.

In the comics, the character begins as June Moone, an artistic type who discovers an evil entity in a mysterious chamber and absorbs its power, becoming Enchantress. But it’s not long before June realizes that she and the entity are not exactly one — in fact, the evil being is a separate entity and one that is almost impossible to control, similar to Jean Grey’s Phoenix persona.

This new rumor seems very likely to be true, particularly given the way Delevingne’s part plays out in the footage. We see her exploring a dark cavern and taking a bath in mucky water with a pentagram scrawled over her head (typical Tuesday), and there’s one shot of a deranged-looking Delevingne in a grungy riff on the traditional Enchantress costume. None of the footage features the actor alongside the remainder of the Squad, though she did become a member of the team in the comic books, so it’s quite possible that they’ll help her get her powers under control and ask her to join up.
Entertainment Weekly brings the first look at Cara Delevingne and Dane Dehaan at Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets, and an interview with the Director Luc Besson.



French director Luc Besson (The Fifth Element, Lucy) was 10 years old when he fell under the spell of Valérian and Laureline. The comic book, which began publication in 1967 and is considered an ancestor of Star Wars and Avatar, tells the adventures of two space agents who solve crimes in intergalactic worlds. The tales so flooded Besson’s brain that they groomed him for young love (Laureline was little Luc’s first crush) and the technological challenges of movie-making that would lie ahead. “When I look at bluescreen,” Besson, 56, says from the Paris set of his Valerian adaptation, “I see everything. My imagination is very comfortable with bluescreen.”

And that’s good, because Valerian includes 2,400 F/X shots. (The Fifth Element contained only about 200.) Besson is coy about the plot (and secret roles played by actors including Rihanna) but says his ultimate goal is to create a sci-fi fantasia that will also appeal to non-devotees of the genre. “Like a cocktail where you don’t even taste the alcohol,” he says with an endearing Santa Claus laugh.

Besson’s Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets opens in theaters in June 2017. He spoke to EW exclusively from Paris and shared five fantastic images from the film, including the one (above) of Valerian (Dane DeHaan) and Laureline (Cara Delevingne) in full armor with a certain Monsieur Besson standing in profile behind them. On his jacket is a drawing of the comic book version of his two heroes.

Entertainment Weekly: From your Twitter account, it looks like you’re about halfway through shooting on Valerian. How are things on the set in Paris? 
Luc Besson: Tomorrow will be half of the film. Our total is 98 days, but I saved two days already on the schedule. I feel really, honestly, more than happy. Which is rare. Usually I’m always skeptical and I wait for the editing, but I have so much good stuff already. The trick of the film was to be sure that Valerian and Laureline were working as a couple. And if I have that, I’m safe.

The two actors you chose to star, Dane DeHaan and Cara Delevingne, they’re not superstars, but they both have a very unique charisma. 
Since day one, they clicked. They connected. Dane is already a genius before he met me. But Cara right now is like a bird who’s taking off. She’s really going to be such a huge star.

Is must be difficult for them to work with so much blue screen. And for you too.
Honestly for me, no. When I started to write this at 13 years old, I was living in the country of cheese, and I wanted to make movies. But when I open my windows I see cows, so believe me, that pushes your imagination. Because you want to escape. I start to read Valerian when I was 10. At the time there was no Internet; there wasn’t even a TV at home. So I read and just had my imagination. So when I look at bluescreen, I see everything. My imagination is very comfortable with bluescreen.

What enchanted you about the comic book originally?
Well, the system at the time was two pages a week. As kids we were so excited. Can you imagine today? We can’t even wait two seconds for the next thing. I was sci-fi which was pretty rare in the early 70s. And it was a guy and a girl, and there weren’t many female heroines at the time. So the first girl I fall in love with, when I was 10, was Laureline. She’s a tough cookie. And she doesn’t say “Yes, yes, yes” to Valerian all the time. I loved that about her.

What took you so long to embark on a film version?
I can say this. Jean-Claude Mézieres, who was the father of Valerian, he worked on Fifth Element for a year, and he was telling me all the time, “Why you don’t make the film?” And I always answered, “We cannot.” There are 10 or 12 human characters, and the others are all aliens. So the technique is not there. We had to wait for Avatar.

And so what happened when you saw Avatar?
I saw Avatar and threw my script for Valerian in the garbage. [Laughs.] I was inspired by James Cameron. He invited me on the set of Avatar. And I asked him questions and he was very open and very sweet. He was sharing with other directors. He helped other people like me to progress.

So what was different when you started writing it again?
I allowed myself much more freedom. I centered the story to make it more real, more human. If you don’t like sci-fi, I want you to still like Valerian. And the other part was: Let’s try to do everything, before someone tells me its impossible. Let’s have the imagination go to the limit. And let’s be so super complicated, with aliens and robots and all this, but to make it look easy like a dance. You watch the thing, and it’s fluid and funny and wild. It’s not deep and complicated. It’s ultra sophisticated to do, but it looks easy. Like a cocktail where you don’t even taste the alcohol [laughs].

So we have this photo of the two of them, Valerian and Laureline, and they seem to be on the run. What’s going on there?
It’s a part of the first mission. Beginning of the film. Like when you see James Bond, there’s always that one mission first. It’s the James Bond-style pre-story mission. They are in the middle of this big mission, and they’re disguised, so that’s why they’re dressed that way. They try to escape. It,s pretty funny how they have to escape.

And who is this big black robot character?
His name is K-Tron. He’s a police officer. You can’t even deal with him. You don’t argue with him. He’s not really important in the film, but he’s just like the the military police. Believe me, I have hundreds of these characters like him.

How involved were you with the costume design? That was one of the aspects that was so distinctive about The Fifth Element.
Since the beginning. When I started a couple of years ago, we had a selection of 6,000 designers from all around the world. We finished with 10. Basically five of them worked for a year. And many of the costumes come from them. Half come from them, and half come from Olivier Bériot, who is the costume designer. And then we had this big contest where we received a lot of drawings, and we picked the best 20, and they’re also in the film. It’s a long long process. We started three years ago.

You’ve got some great actors in the film, like John Goodman and Clive Owen and Ethan Hawke. It’s very exciting to see Rihanna in the cast — is she playing the villain?
I can’t tell you that. The big difference between this and the Marvel pattern is that with Marvel you know after five minutes who’s the villain. They do films that are super well made, but this pattern bothered me a little bit. What’s new here is we have two agents, and over the course of one film, it’s a police investigation, in fact. So you don’t know who’s exactly bad until the end, because it’s an investigation. That’s why I can’t talk too much. But it’s a real story. That’s what I love about it.

How much will I know about the movie from reading the comic? There are 29 Valerian and Laureline comic books.
There is flavor from the comic, for sure. When you read a comic book, it takes you 20 minutes. The film is two hours. So I take the essentials, but I have to go to other worlds. But when you see the film, you will remember in the comic and say, “Oh yeah, yeah, this and this.” The characters are there and a big chunk of the story.
The first trailer for Tulip Fever is out, not much of Cara in it, but it looks very promising. The movie will open in limited release on July 15th.



Tulip Fever will be blossoming in theaters this summer, and EW has an exclusive look at the first trailer for The Weinstein Company’s star-studded period drama.

Based on Deborah Moggach’s novel of the same name (and adapted for the screen by Shakespeare in Love’s Tom Stoppard), Tulip Fever takes place in 17th-century Amsterdam, revolving around the budding relationship between an artist (Dane DeHaan) and a married woman (Alicia Vikander) after the former is commissioned by the latter’s husband (Christoph Waltz) to paint her portrait. The lovers then gamble on the booming market for tulip bulbs as a way to raise money to run away together.

Tulip Fever marks Vikander’s first major role since winning the Best Supporting Actress Oscar for Tom Hooper’s The Danish Girl earlier this year. Waltz and Judi Dench, Vikander’s Tulip Fever costars, have also won Oscars. Matthew Morrison, Cara Delevingne, Jack O’Connell, and Zach Galifianakis round out the film’s supporting cast. The drama also sees director Justin Chadwick returning to European period dramas following his work helming the 2008 Natalie Portman/Scarlett Johansson film The Other Boleyn Girl.

After Tulip Fever, The Weinstein Co. will release Michael Keaton’s Ray Kroc biopic The Founder on Aug. 5, and the Robert De Niro boxing drama Hands of Stone will follow on Aug. 26. The distributor’s Lion, starring Nicole Kidman, Dev Patel and Rooney Mara, is slated for an awards season release on Nov. 25.

Tulip Fever opens in limited release on July 15. Watch the full trailer in the video above.
Cara Delevingne (born 12.08.1992)
Cara Delevingne is an English fashion model.

Childhood: Cara Delevingne was born in London, England. Her grandfather is former English Heritage chairman Sir Jocelyn Stevens. When she was a child, she modelled for Cadbury chocolate. Her sister Poppy Delevingne is also a model.

Modelling career: Cara Delevingne is one of the faces of Burberry's Beauty campaign after previously being involved in their spring/summer 2012 campaign with Eddie Redmayne. Other campaigns she has featured in have been for H&M Authentic Collection, Dominic Jones Jewellery, Blumarine, Zara and Chanel. She has done runway shows for a variety of brands including Shiatzy Chen, Jason Wu, Burberry, Dolce & Gabbana, Stella McCartney and Chanel. She has been the cover girl for magazines such as Vogue UK, i-D, Russh, Jalouse and Style.com. In 2012, she modelled on the runway at the Victoria's Secret fashion show and became the face of DKNY. She won Model Of The Year at the 2012 British Fashion Awards. 2012 also saw her make her acting debut in the film adaptation of 'Anna Karenina' alongside Aaron Taylor-Johnson. She became the face of Chanel's Resort campaign in 2013.

Personal life: Cara Delevingne began dating singer Jake Bugg in late 2012 but they split five months later in 2013. She is rumoured to have briefly dated One Direction heartthrob Harry Styles. She is good friends with Rita Ora and is often seen venturing out to clubs with her. In 2013, she was snapped by paparazzi dropping a suspicious bag of white powder as she left her London home. Given that her career could be in jeopardy if it emerges that she has been taking drugs, H&M has said that the incident will be 'investigated'.
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[Chapter 3A] The Sorceress from Land of Gretchen by Huangdrey/T/ Romance, AU, Adventure, Angst, Sad/Series/Amethyst Gretchen and William Cromwell, others find by yourself
Disclaimer: Inspired by J.K Rowling’s story Harry Potter. All the casts, and plot is mine. Please do not copy without my approval.
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Seseorang tengah menungguku
di menara astronomi.
Tulisannya begini
Menara Astronomi pukul empat.
Cuma itu. Aku melihat jam dan ternyata sudah pukul empat. Kupikir tidak masalah jika terlambat sedikit. Lagipula aku tidak tahu rupa orang yang menungguku. Dan apa jadinya kalau di menara astronomi ada banyak orang? Tak perlu waktu banyak untuk sekedar merapihkan rambut lalu meratapi mukaku lamat-lamat supaya tidak ada apapun yang menempel—memalukan jadinya.
Aku tidak mengajak siapapun, mereka semua masih tidur dan ternyata saat aku memanjat keluar dari ruang rekreasi pun lorong juga tidak begitu ramai. Mungkin mereka semua berubah jadi pintar lalu memilih istirahat di ranjang Hogwarts yang nyaman daripada keluyuran terus-terusan. Aku menyusuri lorong sambil meremas perkamen yang sedang ada di dalam kepalan tanganku. Perasaanku bertambah gugup kian dekat dengan Menara Astronomi, jadi kupercepat gerakan kakiku—maksudku supaya rasa penasaranku tidak lagi memberontak.
Aku berjalan dan tiba di Menara Astronomi lalu tidak menemukan siapapun disana, bahkan bayangan atau cuping telinganya—sedikit saja. Aku melihat kesekeliling arah, melebarkan pandangan mataku sampai-sampai aku menahan agar mataku tidak melotot terlalu berlebihan. Lalu aku melihatnya. Seseorang dengan bayangan hitam—tidak ada yang punya bayangan merah muda sudah pasti, berada di sudut 57 derajat yang tak kuhitung dengan akurat. Lalu aku merasa dejavu seketika saja, memoriku terkilas balik mengingat penyihir dibalik selimut bayangan hitam. Aku menjalankan langkahku tidak pelan tidak cepat, ketika aku sudah benar-benar tepat dibelakangnya—tanganku sudah menumbuk udara, penyihirnya berbalik. Wajahnya berdekatan sekali denganku, sampai diriku khawatir kalau ia mendengar degupan jantungku yang kian meletup—tak mau tenang.
Seringai khasnya tercetak oke diwajahnya yang uhm, keren. Mau tak mau, kupaksa bibirku tetap pada ukurannya semula. Sebagai gantinya, agar wajahku tidak merona kunaikan alis entah kanan atau kiriku. Jadi dia yang menuliskan suratnya, kuduga. Bisa-bisanya.
“Am” Katanya singkat dengan mimik serupa. Ia member jeda dalam tutur katanya yang selalu sopan. Apalagi dengan wanita.
“Kutebak kau yang menyeludupkan ini?” Balasku, sambil mengaduk-aduk kantung jubahku, perkamen yang sebelumnya sudah kupindahkan. Sejenak aku berpikir jangan-sampai-perkamennya-hilang-lalu-malulah-aku. Dan ternyata aku tidak jadi memalukan diriku sendiri, untungnya (apalagi aku seorang ravenclaw) Tanganku membuka gumpalan perkamen yang sudah teremas acak lalu menghadapkannya ke si penyihir dengan selimut bayangan hitam. Itu hanya tindakan untuk melambatkan waktu saja, tintanya tidak mungkin terlihat jelas lagi.
“Menyeludupkan kedalam kepalan tangan. Omong-omong senang bisa menyentuh tanganmu lagi, sejak.. ya kau taulah” Penyihir dengan bayangan hitam malah menarikku lebih dalam menuju suatu sudut. Aku mengikutinya kalau tidak mau tanganku tiba-tiba saja lepas lalu mengalami splinch1 dadakan. Lalu aku tersadar lagi, kalau penyihir ini seenaknya memegang tanganku lagi. Tanpa permisi, melenceng dari tutur kata sopannya. Aku menghentakkan tanganku dengan keras sampai rasanya tanganku betulan ingin copot.
“William! Yang barusan kasar sekali” Tuturku seiring dengan tiga atau empat lapis kerutan di dahiku. Aku tidak suka caranya. Bilang saja aku lagi terlibat emosional hari ini. Coret kata hari ini, lalu ganti di depan Tuan Cromwell.
“Tutup mulut, Am.”
“Hei,kau pikir—“ Ucapanku tidak jadi selesai dikarenakan potongan tidak beretika dari lawan bicaraku. Ia bicara santai lalu menghiraukan balasanku.
“Aku tidak berpacaran dengan Brown” Mungkin ia sudah mengarah ke hal serius. Maksudku, mungkin ia sudah bosan dengan awalannya lalu ingin cepat-cepat mengakhiri pembicaraanku, waktunya singkat.
“Brown? Maksudmu Brown burung hantu milik Josh yang di Gryffindor itu?” Tanyaku pura-pura tolol sambil memutar bola mataku. Aku tangap dengan topik yang paling sensitif yang telah berkali-kali kupikirkan-alihkan begitu terus. Topik paling hot di Hogwarts sejak beberapa hari lalu pas dengan momentum Sorting Hat Ceremony.
“Bukan. Bagaimana kami akan menghasilkan keturunan kalau wanitanya saja seekor burung hantu, Am. Brown dengan nama keluarga sesungguhnya.” Ia mungkin tidak tahu kalau aku berpura-pura,atau mungkin ia tahu lalu mengerti. Entah, aku berasa berkobar mendengar topik dengan bau tidak sedap berkebalikan dengan masakan peri rumah Hogwarts.
“Brown. Nama ABC nya sudah kuhapal mati, kukira gosipnya betulan. Tak kusangka, mantanku menjadi pemain sekarang” Ketusku padanya sambil menunggu reaksi si lawan bicara
“Jadi, apa kau cemburu?” Alisku tiba-tiba saja naik lagi mendengar pertanyaan yang sudah seperti pernyataan bagiku. Kami sudah seratus persen tidak berhubungan apapun. Nol persen untuk saling mengabari. Tapi, sebelum bibirku membuka ia sudah membalas terlebih dahulu. Seperti yang kukatakan sebelumnya, ia menghiraukan balasanku.
“Jangan khawatir, sudah kujelaskan aku tidak berminat dengan adik kelas.” “Tergantung”
Tambahnya sebelum aku melanjutkan lalu akhirnya terdiam sampai ia selesai berkata. Hitung-hitung daripada omonganku tidak digubris. Tidak diantara kami yang menghitung berapa lama waktu untuk kami terdiam saling menunggu.
“Jadi..?” Balasku kemudian, seiring aku menatap kedalam netra onixnya yang selalu kelihatan menusuk. Pada akhirnya kami berduel tatapan menusuk, cukup tidak menggunakan tongkat.
“Jadi, kembalilah bersamaku. Kita akan melukis memori lalu kenangan sebelumnya dapat terulang” Ujarnya, netranya melembut sampai aku tidak berani menegok kedalam sana lagi. Diriku terasa terhanyut mendadak lalu menyelam dalam menuju memori laknat yang tidak seharusnya kuingat lagi, yang telah ditelan oleh danau hitam lalu muncul dipermukaan dikemudian waktu.
“Termasuk hari kau meninggalkanku?” Aku bukan cewek lembek yang langsung berkaca-kaca ketika mantannya memilih untuk merajut hubungan yang sempat putus, lalu berteriak tak waras karena kesakitannya. Aku ini penyihir dan jangan samakan aku dengan yang lainnya.
“Ya dan tidak. Ya untuk sepatah maaf dariku yang terlalu muda saat itu, yang tidak tahu menahu dengan perasaan seseorang yang sedang patah hati ditinggal tanpa alasan. Aku punya alasan. Kau tidak mengerti dan aku tidak dapat menjelaskan. Alasanku meninggalkanmu. Maaf, tetapi kejadian telah berlalu dan hal itu merupakan alasanku untuk kembali denganmu atas motivasiku sendiri. Kita berdua sama-sama merasakan hal yang sama, Am. Kita menjadi pesakitan dengan saling melepas, kau harusnya sadar kita saling membutuhkan. “ Ia mengambil jedanya sebentar
“Tidak untuk selalu menengok ke masa lalu. Aku sudah lelah menjelaskan, kau penyihir pintar harusnya bisa menjabarkan, lalu nama belakang ravenclaw mu yang selalu kau bangga-banggakan”
Am terlarut dengan emosinya perlahan. Tak seperti yang diduga. Ia akan membawakan kata-kata romantis seperti ‘aku mencintaimu sepenuh hatiku’ atau ‘aku tidak dapat hidup denganmu, Am’ Ia mendesah karena yang ia dapatkan justru seperti mantra imperiusWilliam tidak pernah bisa ditebak. Ia lebih romantis dari cowok manapun, ia merangkai kata-kata yang mungkin spontan lalu memasukan penjiwaan kesana. Will memberikan kepastian padanya. Seharusnya ia beruntung.
“Kau pikir begitu?” Tapi malah begitu kalimat yang kuucapkan sambil menatap matanya lagi. Aku mau saja bergantian bola mata dengannya, kalau ia juga mau tentu saja. Aku bercanda.
“Aku akan melakukan legilimens3 sekarang” Kata William yang justru membuatku terbahak, mana boleh murid kelas 4 merapal mantra mungkin kelas tujuh atau enam. Terlebih ia tidak bisa merapalnya, Will paling bodoh di kelas mantra. Bodoh dengan nilai terendah E. Aku masih terbahak memeluk perutku sampai aku melihatnya mengeluarkan tongkat lalu sedikit lagi ia merapalkan mantranya.
“Apa yang kau lakukan!?” Ujarku berteriak, ketawaku langsung kandas berhenti begitu saja. Sudah kubilang William tidak bisa ditebak.
“Sudah kubilang sebelumnya. Kembali padaku Am, jawab dulu pertanyaanku” Sambungnya gegabah sambil makin mengencangkan pegangannya pada tongkatnya—yang terlihat seperti menodongkan kearah Am
“Kau membuat pertanyaan seperti membuat pernyataan. Dasar lelaki” Am membuang napasnya lalu tersenyum miring satu sisi, ia lebih takut pada pengucapan legilimens William daripada efek legilimens sendiri. Soalnya kalau salah langkah, ia sendiri yang menerima ruginya.
Ia—William tidak membalas. Membuat Am kelihatan bego ditengah tatapan pintar dan menghakimi lawan bicaranya. Lalu ia tersadar dengan ‘tidak mungkin kan aku diam terus?’
“Iya Will. Aku sadar kalau kita berdua memang menjadi pesakitan kala itu. Namun dengan konteks berbeda, aku sakit ketika kau meninggalkanku tanpa jejak. Dan kau sakit ketika menyesali semua itu. Semua belum terlambat dan sudah terlambat. Seperti yang kau bilang, aku tidak bisa menjelaskan dan kau tidak mengerti. Mengertilah keadaanku saat ini, aku tidak bisa berbalikan denganmu. Tidak untuk saat ini, aku kelihatan egois kalau menyuruhmu menungguku sedikit lagi—“
“Aku menunggumu.”
“Berapapun waktu yang kau minta Am, aku menunggumu dan jangan kecewakan aku dahulu.” Kata Will yang kelihatan bersungguh.
“Kau tidak berbohong kan?” Setelah saat-saat Am menggigit deretan gigi bawahnya—ia pernah bilang kalau menggigit bibir bawah keterlaluan sakitnya—gigi saja tidak merasakan apapun.
“Kalau kau berpikir begitu..”
“Yasudah, hentikan topiknya.” Will menaikan satu alisnya, yah walaupun tidak begitu keangkat sih cuma lumayanlah untuk usahanya. Am pura-pura tidak lihat.
Lalu tangan Will menumbuk udara-menggapai tangan Am dalam dua kali usaha. Am pura-pura tidak lihat, yang pertama tangan Will cuma memanjang separuh dari jarak mereka berdua, kedua kalinya—ia menundukkan wajahnya lalu menggenggam tangan Am dengan jarak yang tepat kali ini.
Kemudian menarik tangan dan pemiliknya berlalu keluar dari Hogwarts

To be Continue..
Catatan tambahan
  1. Splinch = Cedera pas masuk ke jaringan floo, yang menyebabkan atau bisa saja salah satu dari tubuh kita ketinggalan. Contohnya di DH2 pas trio emas dikejer orang kementrian, lalu Ron mengalami splinch disana.

  1. Mantra Imperius = Salah satu dari 3 kutukan tak termaafkan, ngebuat orang yang kena mantra ini kayak terhipnotis dan mengikuti perintah si pemantra. Contohnya lagi yang dilakuin Harpot di DH2 pas mau nerobos Gringotts ke goblinnya, pas Hermione nyamar jadi Bellatrix.

  1. Legilimens = Pelafalannya leh-JILL-ih-mens, yang capslock brati itu ditekankan. Mantra buat membaca atau memasuki pikiran seseorang. Sulit dipelajari, kalau penyihir ini sudah ahli dalam legilimens-dia gaperlu wand lagi buat ngelakuin itu. Contohnya lagi kayak Voldemort atau you-know-who